August 13, 2007

~ Randomly...

I watched the local production 881 with my mum and Jasmine earlier in the evening. I didn't want to watch it initially. But it sort of gave a best motivation for me to just walk away from work and leave to tomorrow what I could leave till tomorrow.

Actually, the difficult part about leaving work everyday is not about wanting to stay back and finish work. It's more about leaving the colleagues, I slowly came to realise. We are getting on too damn fine that it's hard to be the first to leave the office alone. In twos or threes, it's easier. Unfortunately, it's not often that a few of us can leave around the same time.

Anyway, the movie.

I quite enjoyed it. It was a bit draggy, certain characters were rather redundant and of course, not missing the lame jokes. But, these aside, it's entertaining and I thought it's good in the way that it uses getai as a cultural relic. It tells of one of the ways people at this grass root level do to dispel some of their disappointments in life, and about their resignation in and to life. The hokkien songs in the movie are, actually, rather moving. I don't know... I did strongly feel like tearing on a few occasions.

The other thing is, watching the papaya sisters (ya, so lame, the name) being so close and so supportive to each other, somehow, reminds me of Kay and myself. How we used to be. The thought 'they must be lesbians' just kept flashing through my mind. haha...

And I miss having someone like this close to me. Someone close to me, close to me. To hug and whose shoulders to rest on.

Sometimes, on occasions like this, I actually, miss that fucking vain bitch very much. Her blog is GONE! Shame on her, really. Worse? She's been missing too!

FVB Kyn, if you even get to read this, make some noise somewhere. So we know you are still with us in this crap.

xxx

One of my referrals at work is having me on an available-girlfriend promotion. I am, supposedly, 'a girl that you will regret for the rest of your life if you let her go'.

Well, don't worry. If that's true, then you won't be alone in that regret.

xxx

I don't want romance. I don't want a relationship. I just want to be someone you can come crying to, cry with and someone you can hold when tears are in your eyes.

The last time I hugged her, I cried quietly. The last time I hugged someone, I felt like crying. Since then, I like and dislike hugging anyone.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:26